May 31, 2014

The Memories of the Deeply Forgetful

I could not control her memory loss or her inability to make new memories, so I decided the best thing I could do was to help her to keep from forgetting.

Bob DeMarco
Alzheimer's Reading Room

In the beginning, many Alzheimer's care partners focus  on and sometimes obsess about memory.

 Alzheimer's World the Deeply Forgetful

By this I mean, they use post it notes and whiteboards to help Alzheimer's patients remember. They often say things like, “don’t you remember”, or “you just asked me that”.

It is sometimes hard to comprehend that the

deterioration of the right now memory 

is a given in Alzheimer's disease. Right now memory goes first.

I’ll interject here that I believe caregivers should focus on memories not memory.

Music, pictures, and discussions of the way back past are good tools that can enliven the deeply forgetful.

Enliven is a key word.

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My viewpoint of  dementia is often very different than those that I meet.

It seems to me that Dementia is about the gradual deterioration of mental functioning,  specifically thinking, concentration, memory, judgment, and includes moodiness and challenging behavior. These all affect a person’s ability to perform normal daily activities.

For example, it is not unusual for dementia patients to forget the importance of taking a shower. You won’t get them to do what you want by trying to explain why they need to take a shower, or should take a shower. Or at least this didn't work well for us.

So, I decided to focus on what I call the

deep forget.

When I did this I started to think of 

my mother as deeply forgetful

not as an Alzheimer’s patient.

So I embarked on a mission to help my mother keep from forgetting how to do things.

For example, in her normal everyday life my mother would wake up, read the newspaper, and then do the crossword puzzle.

So we started each and every day by doing just that.

I would discuss the front page with her, look at the recipe page and ask her to read the ingredients of a recipe to me, and then eventually put the crossword puzzle in front of her if she didn’t do it herself.

As a result, Dotty never forgot how to read, and she could still get three letter words in the crossword puzzle even after she scored a 12 on the MMSE. Below 16 indicates moderate to severe dementia.

I also placed a book on my mother’s pillow every night. She couldn’t remember a word she read, but she could still read, I watched her do it, I watched her dog ear the last page she read, and I watched her put the book down and turn off the light before she went to sleep.

This explains in part why she could still read out loud if asked to, and why she could still hold a conversation.

Most neurologists and geriatric care persons were amazed at her ability to read.

If I had not done this I believe she would have forgotten how to read, and then probably how to speak full sentences. This did not  happen to us.

I didn't want Dotty to forget, and I also didn't care whether or not she could remember what she read. I felt like I could control the forgetting to some extent, 

I could not control her memory loss.

Here is a good example of the difference between memory and forgetting.

In 2010 as part of her testing my mother was shown a picture of a fork. She was asked what is this and what do you do with it. She could not answer either question while looking at the picture.

Then she was handed a fork and asked to demonstrate what you do with it. She demonstrated how you use it to eat.

She was then asked what is it. She got a look on her face like she was being treated like an idiot. And then said, what do you think I am an idiot, this is a fork.

That did tickle the woman giving the test.

My point.

Couldn’t remember, but didn’t forget.

Once I started viewing my mother as deeply forgetful, 

I forgot she had Alzheimer’s. This lifted a great burden  off my back.

The stigma attached to Alzheimer's is burdensome.

Unfortunately, we as caregivers drink the kool-aid. We often allow our brains to focus on the negative instead of focusing in on the right here and right now.

We have allowed the money folks to taint our thinking and convince us that Alzheimer's disease is an automatic death sentence.  It is a nasty lie  that is damaging to the entire Alzheimer's community.

We are born and some day we die. In between we live our lives. The goal of every dementia caregiver and dementia friends should be to live life along with the person living with dementia, the forgetful one.

Live life one day at a time and it takes on a new and important meaning.

Each and every person who is deeply forgetful is capable of more than we can ever imagine. 

We can miss the "more there" easily because our brains are constrained, and we are constantly bombarded by the many stigmas and misconceptions that are attached to Alzheimer's disease and related dementia.

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Bob DeMarco
Bob DeMarco is the Founder of the Alzheimer's Reading Room (ARR). Bob is a recognized expert, writer, speaker, and influencer in the Alzheimer's and Dementia Community worldwide. The ARR Knowledge Base contains more than 4,700 articles. Bob lives in Delray Beach, FL.
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